Friday, October 16, 2009

The Age of Princesses and Pirate Ships

The Six Year Old has always had an innate love of music. It's fascinating to watch how certain music and songs, in particular, capture her attention. And heart.

Lately, Taylor Swift has been at the top of her Favorites list. And, I'm only too happy to indulge her.

Yesterday, I received notification that the "Fearless" cd had arrived at our library after requesting it months ago. We've been having a particularly difficult time lately, trying to get along as mother and daughter, so I was thrilled to know that I'd have something to surprise her with and, hopefully, bridge the chasm that has grown between us as we struggle to stand our respective ground.

I carefully placed the cd jewel case in her booster seat so that when she got into the car after school she would see her beloved Taylor. As I sat in the front seat, holding my breath in anticipation, I watched as she opened the door, picked up the cd, sat down and placed it in her lap.

Nothing. Silence.

"Aren't you excited about the cd?" I queried in total disappointment. "Of course!" she exploded, feigning disgust and rolling her eyes. I turned around, deflated, and pushed play on her favorite song.

Later that night, I listened to the cd, familiarizing myself with the songs, the lyrics, the melodies. While I realize she currently is a pop sensation, it became very clear to me why the Six Year Old was so taken. The lyrics are raw, unedited....honest. The melodies catchy but richly complicated. The sentiment is that of the human spirit.

This song, obviously, spoke to me on so many levels. As a friend. As a partner. As a daughter. As a mother. As a human being trying to connect and make my way. I hoped, as I listened to this earnest celebration of the mother/daughter bond, that I could find my way to be the mother, and the person, that I've always aspired to be.

I'm five years old, it's getting cold, I've got my big coat on
I hear your laugh and look up smiling at you, I run and run
Past the pumpkin patch and the tractor rides, look now, the sky is gold
I hug your legs and fall asleep on the way home

I don't know why all the trees change in the fall
But I know you're not scared of anything at all
Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away
But I know I had the best day with you today

I'm thirteen now and don't know how my friends could be so mean
I come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys
And we drive and drive until we found a town far enough away
And we talk and window shop 'til I've forgotten all their names

I don't know who I'm gonna talk to now at school
But I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you
Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay
But I know I had the best day with you today

I have an excellent father, his strength is making me stronger
God smiles on my little brother, inside and out, he's better than I am
I grew up in a pretty house and I had space to run
And I had the best days with you

There is a video I found from back when I was three
You set up a paint set in the kitchen and you're talking to me
It's the age of princesses and pirate ships and the seven dwarfs
And Daddy's smart and you're the prettiest lady in the whole wide world

And now I know why the all the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes
For staying back and watching me shine
And I didn't know if you knew, so I'm takin' this chance to say
That I had the best day with you today

1 comment:

  1. oh, you are raising such an independent, sensitive, wonderful spirit. hmm... sounds like anyone we know?

    you're doing it right, even though it doesn't feel like it all the time.

    and who knew little taylor swift would become my new favorite singer?