Monday, May 11, 2009

Let Go

Here in Cologne
I know I said it wrong
I walked you to the train
And back across alone
To my hotel room
And ordered me some food
And now I'm wondering why the floor has suddenly become a moving target

Four, three, two, one,
I'm letting you go
I will let go
If you will let go

Says here an astronaut
Put on a pair of diapers
Drove eighteen hours
To kill her boyfriend
And in my hotel room, I'm wondering
If you read that story too?
And if we both might
Be having the same imaginary conversation

Four, three, two, one,
I'm letting you go
I will let go
If you will let go

Weightless as I close my eyes
The ceiling opens in disguise

Such a painful trip
To find out this is it
And when I go to sleep
You'll be waking up

Four, three, two, one,
I'm letting you go
I will let go
If you will let go.




As you get older and gain more life experience, one of the most liberating and yet sometimes painful skills you gain is being able to let go. I've come to learn, especially over the past six months, that there are essentially two varieties of people: those that want to see you succeed at any cost and those that prefer to use you for their own self-gratification - setting you up to fail constantly in an effort to validate their own feeble lives. And, while seeing people for who they truly are and not the potential I see in them is a formidable task, it's ultimately easier to let them go so as to move on and better myself.

Four, three, two, one...

4 comments:

  1. i'm following your lead, girl!

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  2. Yeah, I"ve had to let go of a few of those - after some fits and starts of me "seeing potential." But it's great once you do, like clearing all the clutter out of the basement!

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  3. So true, Alexa! I've been weeding out my closets, my everything and it feels so good to purge, purge, purge! :)

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  4. Why are we always trying to fix the broken men instead of concentrating our efforts on the men who either aren't broken or, even better, have already taken the time to fix themselves?

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